Tomorrow it's one year since that Thursday afternoon when Mum left this earthly life and moved on to be with Jesus in Heaven. I wasn't really sure whether I wanted to share anything on social media about it, and I'm still not really sure how to go about it. I want her life to be honoured and I love talking about her, but at the same time it's so personal, and its also weird writing her a post when she's just plain not here. I kind of came to the conclusion that on this one year mark of life without her here I wanted to share some things that in my eyes made her who she was, and honour the person that she was.. Just share some special things that I remember from her and also so I can look back on this blog in a few years time and remember how I felt on that first year.
Looking back on that last week with her has been a mix of emotions.. That week was chaos. It started at the start of the week on the Sunday afternoon after Father's Day, her mind started to fade and she slowly slipped into a confused comatose over the next few days. We struggled a lot that week with watching her upset and in pain, I remember just being in a daze the whole week. Sleep, force some food down, sit with her, look after the family, repeat. Those days all kind of blurred into one. We were all exhausted mentally, emotionally and physically, but in a small way it was good that it wasn't so sudden, it gave us time to process and grieve, and by the time the funeral came around we were able to face it and be strong enough to stand up there and say our final goodbyes. God carried us through that funeral, I don't even remember half of it.